My life changed completely on January 4th, 2019. I lost my son. It was unexpected, unbelievable, and unbearable. I felt like I was drowning in an ocean of grief. In the midst of that struggle, I decided to start journaling my experience. I wrote these journal entries to help myself cope with the thoughts and feelings I was experiencing. But as I continued to write them, I began to realize that there are others out in the world going through this same journey. I have decided to share some of these journals as a way to connect with others, and to provide support to anyone going through a similar tragedy. I am not an author. I am a mother. These are my raw writings, filled with whatever thoughts and emotions I was feeling at the time. Journaling my thoughts has helped heal my heart. My hope is that my writing will speak to others who are grieving and help them know that they are not alone in their feelings of loss.